It’s been a long and exhausting week. And because I’m tired of writing about being tired, I’ll give you a quick update on my sleep situation today and then tomorrow I’ll move on! After three nights of laying awake for hours on end when I should have been sleeping, and seeing my productivity and ability to concentrate plummet as a result during the days, I finally decided to take some Benadryl last night. I slept beautifully, and I am so thankful. I woke up twice, but each time I fell back asleep with ease.
While this week has been extremely difficult in some ways, in other ways it has been one of the most interesting and meaningful experiences of my life. It’s strange to say that about this situation, because there is nothing particularly special about it. I mean, it was generally unfortunate, but in comparison to the hardships that many people face in life every day, it was nothing! And yet, I feel like it fundamentally shifted something inside of me.
It gave me a reason to be intentional. It gave me a reason to look at each day as an opportunity to grow and succeed, in ways that I hadn’t ever really done before. It forced me to reach inside myself and find a bit of strength that I didn’t even know was there. Because I didn’t want my lack of sleep to tank my emotions or the progress that I’ve made on this journey, I made it my goal to approach the week with joy and optimism, no matter what happened. And I succeeded!
Reflecting on this (after finally getting some much needed sleep last night), I feel like I have just completed an epic marathon or some great test of strength. All week long, my body was fighting against me to get anxious and my emotions were often flirting with disaster. But I held it together. I employed what I have learned this far about how to remain calm, peaceful, and grateful, and I passed the test! I feel really proud of myself!
I think that in moments when you are truly challenged and stretched beyond your comfort zone, you have a unique opportunity to discover a deeper meaning in life. The reality is that so much of what goes on in our daily lives is meaningless, unless there is an underlying purpose driving it. But when life is smooth and easy, you can unsuspectingly fall into a rut of just coasting through your days without really thinking about the meaning in each moment, each step, each decision.
This week, as I pursued gratitude and joy despite the fact that my exhausted mind and body were working against me, I had to recognize that every moment mattered. Every action mattered. Every reaction to the people around me mattered. In order to remain peaceful and calm, I had to be very self-aware and intentional about everything. And looking back, that was a very beautiful and wholesome experience.
I want to live like this all the time. I want to live like every moment has meaning, because every moment does have meaning. Just imagine what the world would be like if more people went through their lives with an awareness and a sense of purpose for each and every moment! I think that we would see an astonishing shift in our society as people would experience extraordinary personal growth.
This is a world I would like to live in! And so I’m going to try to do my part, and live my life as though every moment has meaning.
Do you see the meaning in each moment of life? Are you self-aware and intentional, or do you tend to just coast through your days without really thinking about your thoughts and actions? Leave me a comment and let me know how you approach life!