It’s been a long day of travel so far. Ryan and I woke up early in Edmonton this morning to catch our first flight to Toronto, and sadly, my motion sickness started even before we arrived at the airport! With a brutal bout of nausea in the car, no doubt with some help from my morning travel meds which I had mistakenly taken BEFORE breakfast, rather than WITH breakfast, I had a bit of a rough start to the day!
Next, a bad patch of turbulence as we descended into Toronto almost put me over the edge, and I thought it was going to be the first time I would have to use the barf bag on an airplane! But somehow I managed to hold it together, and actually appreciated the six-hour layover this afternoon so that I could just sit and rest, allowing my body a chance to recover from all that movement!
As I sat in a passenger lounge at the Toronto Pearson International Airport this evening, waiting for the Turkish Airlines check-in counter to open up, I began to ponder my motivations for this trip to Rwanda. Why am going? What am I hoping to get out of this? And is any of it even about me anyway?
Realizing that most of my prayers related to this trip recently have been motivated by fear and anxiety, I decided that I needed to ask God to help me see His perspective. Moments later, I was reading the following words from Ephesians 5:1 in the Bible:
“Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.” (NIV)
Walk in the way of love. What would the next three weeks look like if I committed to walk in the way of love? Love is a better motivation than fear. Love is a better motivation than self. Love is the best motivation of all! And if I could experience the next three weeks through the lens of love, that would make me very happy!
So that is my goal. My desire for the next three weeks is to remember that this trip isn’t about me. This trip is an opportunity to give and receive love in a radical way—even in a new culture where I will feel drastically out of my element at times.
So tonight, my prayer is that God would fill me with His love—His love, which is strong enough to cast out all fear! My prayer is that my heart will overflow with love so much that I won’t be able contain it, and that every person I meet on this adventure will be able to tell! My prayer is that love will motivate me every day, and in every moment. Love for others, love for God, and even love for myself.
I know this is going to be an amazing experience. And I can’t wait to learn what love has in store for me over the next three weeks!