But I Don’t Feel Like It!

There is nothing easy about going back to work after three weeks away! Even when you love your job and have a ton of things to do to keep you busy, those first few days back in the office are always a bit of a drag.

In fact, getting back into the routine of life in general is proving to be a bit of a challenge for me. For starters, I am completely exhausted and unmotivated when it comes to doing anything around the house! Amazingly, I have managed to do most of my unpacking, but I can’t give any positive reports on the dishes that keep on stacking up in the sink. What? I actually have to wash those? And don’t even get me started on making a proper meal… I would prefer not to disclose we’ve been eating around here for the past few days!

And then there’s my mental health—my favorite topic to avoid right now. To be honest, it has been on the back-burner. I don’t actually know how I’m doing, because I have purposefully NOT been thinking about it for the past three weeks. I mean, I’m not saying that I’m having a crisis here—in fact, I think I’m doing fairly well, all things considered—I’m just admitting that I have been too lazy with my emotions lately to actually spend any time evaluating how I have been reacting to situations, travel, new information, etc.

I know it’s time to get back in the groove. But after three weeks of not even having to care what day of the week it is, re-engaging in a regular routine seems like a bit of a tough pill to swallow! Can’t I just ignore my responsibilities for a few more days?! I know, I know. Of course not. But hey, a girl can dream!

So, the best thing I can do right now is suck it up and set a few goals for myself for the next few days. Laziness can be a real killer for me, and I have to admit that the temptation towards it is really getting to me right now. So, for the sake of accountability, here are a few things that I need to accomplish in the next day or two:

  1. Do the dishes… tonight!
  2. Finish unpacking and cleaning up from travel.
  3. Plan some healthy meals.
  4. Get some exercise.
  5. Complete some overdue design work that should have been finished before I left for Rwanda!

Slowly but surely I’ll get back on track. And I know that the longer I wallow in my “I don’t feel like it” mindset, the longer it will take for my life to go back to normal. So, that said, I think it’s time for me to sign off and head outside for a quick walk before I start to tackle those dishes! Wish me luck!

How do you get yourself back in the groove after you’ve been away on holidays? How do you re-motivate yourself towards productivity when you’ve been enjoying auto-pilot for a few weeks? All thoughts and ideas are welcome!

3 thoughts on “But I Don’t Feel Like It!

  1. Nicolle says:

    I know how it feels! I hope you’ll get back into your groove soon. 😀
    As for me… well, I’m a procrastinator. Not exactly a good role model in that sense. 😅 I like to kind of slowly ease myself back into my groove and take it a step at a time, i.e. wash the dishes today, write that blog post tomorrow, etc. I try not to berate myself during the transition period, however long it takes; I just do what I can. Hopefully that helps. 😀

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  2. lexydragonfly says:

    People who don’t have a mental illness simply don’t understand the need to be watchful, always watchful. It’s not an obsessive or paranoid thing, which they sometimes assume, but rather a self maintenance thing. A good example to explain it to them is that we must watch be watchful with our cars: proper maintenance, care, etc or things will go awry it will end up on the scrap heap. I don’t want to end up on a scrap heap so maintenance is required.

    If my house isn’t in order I feel like I’m not in order, if I’m not on at least a bare bones schedule, my moods are subject to wanderings which is not, in any way, a good thing.

    When I got out of treatment, nearly 2 months away from home, I had to reintegrate back into my normal living schedule. Honestly I would have preferred just binge watching Netflix, coloring or working on my puzzle all day. In fact, I think that is what I did do for a period of time but enough was enough. I got a full size desk calendar that has a week at a time. It’s a tools4wisdom calendar and started planning each day. I only put 3-4 small chores or 2 big chores per day so I wasn’t overwhelmed. Getting a little done at a time (and crossing those off with a big bold marker, lol) gave me a greater sense of accomplishment till I fell back into the rhythm of my life. The thing is, sometimes I end up in lazy mode even if I haven’t gone away. I do the same thing: start with a few, build back up. It’s important for me to not feel overwhelmed. If I do, I shut down.

    I’m writing this comment 3 days after you’ve posted this so my hope is you’ve already found your way back into the rhythm of your life.

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