It’s the time of year when, at least in my world, everything is starting up again. As I wrote about on September 1st, this gives me a natural opportunity to have a fresh start. To reboot my system and refresh my sense of calling and purpose. And I feel like I have been doing just that over the past few weeks!
I’m so thankful for how much I have learned and grown over the course of this past year. When I look back on it all, it’s almost hard for me to believe how far I’ve come. But what always amazes me more than the progress I have made is the realization that progress never actually has to end. Our lives are designed with the purpose of growth and development in mind. We’re not meant to live our lives at a standstill… because when we do, we start to deteriorate.
This fall, my church is kicking off the new season with a series called “Turn It Up.” It’s all about this idea that we don’t ever have to hit a plateau, but that we can actually turn up the volume knob on our sense of significance, purpose, and meaning in life.
I really believe in this concept, and I am genuinely so thankful for it. I am energized by the idea that I will never actually “arrive” in this lifetime. I will never be done learning or growing. There will always be new things for me to learn, new ways for my heart to expand, and new challenges that will push me to a higher standard of excellence. This invigorates me, because it means that no matter how dark life may get at times, there will always be a hope that things can get better.
I’ve experienced this first hand over the past year, and I know it to be true. Life is not about standing still. If I had chosen to stand still last fall, when I was in one of the darkest places of my adult life, I don’t think I could have survived. Instead, I chose to start taking small steps… tiny steps, in fact, at first. And with each step, I found there was solid ground beneath my feet. I started to learn how to walk again. And eventually, things started to get better.
I am now in a place where I am ready to “turn it up” again. I am about to enter a brand new season in life: motherhood. And with it will come new challenges to navigate, new obstacles to overcome, and new joys that will undoubtedly overwhelm my heart.
In some ways, the coming changes that are about to inundate my world absolutely terrify me. But at the same time, I am eager, excited, and ready. I know that in some ways you can never really be ready, but I am encouraged by Luke 16:10. It says, “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones.”
I feel like I have shown myself over the years as someone who is faithful. I work hard. I finish what I start. And I care deeply about everything I do—from the relationships I engage in to the tasks that I complete. I make a point of living intentionally. I’m proud of the things that I have accomplished, and I am so grateful for the ways that I have been able to manage and prevail over many of the mental health challenges that have stood in my way.
And now, I’m ready for the next challenge. I have been faithful with what I have been given so far, and now I’m ready to be faithful in this next adventure. And not only that, but I am excited to see what new things God has in store for me as I embark on it. Because I know that, whatever happens, He will always keep me secure in the palm of His hand.
So I’m ready to turn it up. I’m ready to turn up the volume on my life. Both literally—because I’m about to have a screaming baby in my home 24/7—and figuratively. I’m ready to find out what happens next, and I’m eager to see where God wants to take me. Because whatever it is, wherever it is, I know it’s going to be good!
As an aside…
Feel free to check out this awesome video! In it, my friend Landon introduces the Turn It Up series at FBC. You never know… maybe it will inspire you to “turn it up” too!