Heart Surgery: Who do You Want Holding the Scalpel?

I don’t know how to process what I am feeling right now. Emotionally tired? Confused? Overwhelmed? There’s one thing I do know for sure: I do not feel like writing. I keep sitting here and staring at my screen with a tremendous urge to slap shut my laptop and go do something else—anything else that … Continue reading Heart Surgery: Who do You Want Holding the Scalpel?

Last Night I Lost It, But Today I am Thankful

Last night anxiety hit hard. My heart started pounding, my thoughts started racing, and within minutes I felt like I was about to throw up. A stressful, fearful thought had been triggered, and all of a sudden I felt out of control. I lost focus on my previous activity and started obsessing over the trigger. … Continue reading Last Night I Lost It, But Today I am Thankful

Apology Not Accepted

“I’m sorry.” This is one of the most commonly used phrases in my life. I am constantly apologizing. And I find that the closer my relationships become, the more these two words make their way into my everyday vocabulary. It’s not that I’m constantly walking around offending people or doing things wrong. It’s that I … Continue reading Apology Not Accepted