My week was not exactly what I expected. I wouldn’t say it was the worst week, but it wasn’t a spectacular week either. Ryan was sick with a cold (and then bronchitis) for almost the whole month of January, and somehow I managed to dodge his bug that entire time. But it finally caught up to me this week. I have been sniffling and sneezing like crazy, fighting off plenty of headaches, and finding myself dehydrated and exhausted.
All week I have been mindful of the Motivation Monday blog I posted four days ago, but I have definitely been struggling with a few of the points! Sure, I took steps in each of the categories, but I always tend to focus on the negative side, rather than the things I did well. Intentionality (point #1) in my world often happens in the form of making healthy choices to look after my mind and body. This includes things like meal planning so that I can ensure I am getting all the nutrients I need, exercising often to stay fit and increase energy, and being sure to set aside time to relax (ie. read a book or take a bath). Well… none of those things actually happened this week.
While I have been trying to go to bed early and get lots of sleep (point #2), my body has not really been cooperating. Even with plenty of cold and flu drugs in my system, I would find myself waking up constantly through the night. Last night I gave up on the meds and just tried sleeping on my own… and I ended up awake from 3 a.m. until 5 a.m. this morning!
Furthermore, I had full intentions of working my butt off (point #3) this week, but instead I have found myself working at a turtle’s pace. Day after day I would come home thinking, “I really didn’t accomplish all that much today. I need to work harder tomorrow!” But then I would get back into the office the next morning and need to completely re-motivate myself all over again. While I did cross a number of things off my to-do list this week, I really had hoped to accomplish more.
I could look at this week and decide that it was a write-off. I could just give up now and not even try to have a successful weekend, choosing to just crawl into bed, nurse my headache, and wallow in self-pity. But I don’t want to do that. I want a better weekend than that!
So instead I am going to take point #5 from Motivation Monday and exercise it right now until I feel motivated enough to do something positive for myself this Friday evening. If you haven’t read the post, point #5 is “celebrate the victories”. So here is a list of things that I consider “victories” from this past week:
- I blogged daily. Sometimes my posts were published later than I would have liked (including this one). But I followed through on my commitment.
- I wrote a guest post on a new friend’s blog! This was such an honor for me, and I really enjoyed the experience. Click here to visit Marie’s blog and read my guest post!
- I had two really big items and a bunch of small items on my work to-do list this week. I was able to cross off a bunch of the small ones and one of the really big ones that I have been procrastinating on for weeks (writing an annual report).
- While I didn’t get around to meal planning, and I did make some poor dietary choices for sure, I also made a couple healthy meals and managed to grab a few healthy snacks for Ryan and I here and there.
- I did laundry and vacuumed the house.
- I worked through any anxiety symptoms that I experienced and didn’t have a meltdown.
- I looked at a few pictures of snakes today. (I had Ryan carefully select some “cute” ones that he thought I would be able to look at without losing it. He managed to find a couple pictures of tiny little snakes wearing top-hats! What a great start!)
- I didn’t let my sickness get me down. I mean, it definitely SLOWED me down. I took it pretty easy on myself so that I could try to get better, but overall I think I did a pretty good job of not letting it steal my joy.
- I spent time daily reading my Bible and allowing God to renew my spirit (except for today, but I am going to do that as soon as I publish this post!).
When I look at this list, it is easy to see that this week was not a write-off. Sometimes it is easy to feel tired, worn-out, and empty, and erroneously conclude from how you are feeling that you have somehow failed. But feelings don’t equal failure.
My week may not have looked like what I expected it to. I may not have accomplished everything I hoped I would. But I did still accomplish a lot. And I am thankful for that.
How was your week? Do you tend to let your feelings determine your level of success or failure in life? I’d love to hear your thoughts!